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      "What kind of friends do you have?" Aki asked Natsu, who are childhood friends who just got reunited with each other a couple of days ago. "Oh, all sorts," Natsu shrugged. "Oh come on now, Natsu! Share!" Aki begged Natsu with her "puppy eyes" trick. "You'll stop at nothing, won't you?" Aki just smiled at what Natsu said. "Well, I had three friends. One was dark, one was light and one was neutral. Okay, let's go back!" Natsu snapped. "Eeehhh??!! That's it?! Unfair Natsu!"


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      There are many kinds of friends but I'll just categorize what I know into three : Dark (unfaithful, misleading, hidden enemy, traitor), Light (best friend, can be trusted, is always there) and Neutral (normal friends, aquaintance, companion). Friends who are "dark" are those who probably befriended you to use you. They act kind when you face them, but when you turn your back to them, they spread false rumours about you. They cannot be trusted with secrets since they'll probably use this to blackmail you in the future. They act nice whenever they need something from you but when you need something from them, they'll brush you off and tell you to go ask someone else. In my opinion, they are the worst of the worst.

      Friends who are considered "light" are those who you can really count on. They are rare though. As the saying goes or I think it does "Friends are easy to find but TRUE friends are hard to keep". It's easy to find friends but it's not easy to keep the REAL friends. Real friends are hard to find nowadays, but if you look hard enough, you'll probably see one just beside you or by the corner. True friends are the keeps. They care about you, you won't be bored whenever you're with them. They can keep secrets and you can trust them. In short, having a true friend is enough to make a person happy and secure.

     Friends who are "neutral" are people who you know, but not in a personal level. They are also called acquaintances. You know each other, but not that much. But these aquaintances could turn into true friends or unfaithful friends, it all depends on you. How you treat them is also a factor for this, so be careful out there!

   "Labels are for cans NOT for people!"

      Ever heared of that line? You must have. This line is commonly used by yours truly in expressing my disagreement in "labeling" other people. Labeling people can't be avoided. It is, sometimes, annoying and very rude to the person being labeled. This kind of practice can be seen on our very own school, PSD. Calling a kid EMO just because he doesn't mingle much is very ridiculous. It doesn't really imply that he is emo just because he doesn't get along with other people much, so don't friggin' call him that! It's not nice and very impolite. You'll never know if you're offending the person or not, right? So why don't we stop labeling our OWN classmates? Is it fun to LABEL them, without thoroughly knowing them? What if they label YOU, "jerk-of-the-class"? Does THAT sound funny? HELL NO!

      In the classroom that I always stay, people label each other. The most common label they use would be "EMO". I mean, what the frick is with the "emo"? They should look at themselves first, their friendster profiles and see who the FRICK is emo! Some people also call others "LOSERS". Oho~! Don't get me started with this. I know I call other people "loser" too, but I don't really LABEL them, I just say it in a playful wa--- okay, so I AM one of those people who label others; but still, I do it out of impulse. Some people won't stop calling a person "Loser" until s/he cries. What IS their problem anyway?! Stop it with the labeling! Stop criticizing each other! We're already on our FOURTH year in high school man! Why can't we all just get along?! We're all equal humans you know.

      

      Infatuation is sometimes mistaken for "love" but it might be a bit close to love itself. It is just a short-lived fondness for a person of the opposite sex that can easily be mistaken for the "real feeling". A person will soon discover this truth and will probably forget about the previous "loved" person and move on to the next. This feeling isn't as strong as love, where people say that you can do anything if you felt this feeling, it is merely a temporary liking towards a person. Let's take an example:

       A girl who started dating a guy who courted her, thinking that he'll be her one true love. They stayed as a couple for a couple of months and soon the girl grew tired of their relationship and called it off. She thought that he was THE ONE, but he wasn't. She just liked him for a short period of time and this "like" turned into something uninteresting.

       The above example shows a girl who mistook "infatuation" as love. Just because she was being courted by the guy, it doesn't mean that he will already be the ONE (commonly known as Mr. Right) thus after holding on to this stupid belief of hers, she grew tired of the guy in a couple of months. Which shows us that infatuation is always mistaken as love, especially by young people.

      Love, on the other hand, is something deeper and more complex. Love is something that every person in the world would want to have. It is a feeling that is mysterious yet, we are still able to understand this complex feeling. Loving someone isn't the same as liking a person. Love is the most powerful feeling a person can have, while liking someone (infatuation) is something that will continuously fade away by time. When you love someone, you'll feel like everything in this black and white world of yours just found their colors and you feel so happy that you can probably do anything.

      Love really is a mysterious feeling. It turns cowards into heroes, weaklings into warriors and the bad people into something close to a saint. It changes people dramtatically. It's like a drug that you can take in enormous amounts and still live.

     Love and infatuation are NEARLY the same, but they differ in one or two aspects, but I assure you that LOVE is more powerful and longer-lasting than infatuation.

      "I don't want to be with you anymore! You're always home so late! It makes me feel like you already have someone else!" A wife yeld at her husband, who was still wearing his work clothes and just got home. Their children were watching, crying their hearts out and begging their mom and dad to stop fighting. "It's not my fault you ungrateful woman!" The husband finally snapped back at his wife, who was taken aback by her husband's words, "Is it my fault that the company wanted me to stay and take overtime? NO! Is it my fault to want a better future for our children?!" The wife came to her senses and took out a picture, no a couple of pictures and bellowed at his husband with a shaky and unstable voice, tears were pouring out of her eyes, which were already tired of crying every night due to her husband's polygamy, "LOOK! IS THIS NOT PROOF OF YOUR UNFAITHFULNESS?! Don't give me this 'working my ass off' crap! This is pure evidence of your disloyalty to this family! You and those CONCUBINES of yours! YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL TOGETHER!" The husband was glued to his chair by these words and those pictures, but mustering all his courage and for the sake of his pride as a man he stood up and yelled back at his wife "I want a divorce!"

      The above scene could have happened to someone you know, or to yourself. But what is a "divorce"? If you consult Mr. Dictionary, what you'll get would be "an official ending of marriage", but that's not the point. The point in this essay is: (1) what is the cause of a divorce? and (2) what is the effect of a divorce to the directly involved people and the indirectly involved people?
 
       Let's tackle the first question first. What IS the cause of a divorce? The example I gave would have the cause : "unfaithfulness", this is because the husband was, instead of working overtime as he stated, going around getting drunk and sleeping with random women he hits on. There are many kinds of causes for divorce like: loss of passion, getting sick of each other, regular fights, distance, disloyalty to one another, financial problems and many more. My main point here would be for married couples to spend time with each other and try to make the marriage relationship work, if the couple cannot do this, then their marriage life would certainly go downhill.

       Okay, for the second question : what is the effect of a divorce to the directly involved people and the indirectly involved people? To the "involved people", meaning husband and wife, they would feel a bit happy and a bit sad since they are finally free from their chains (each other xD). They would probably miss each other, this is IF they still have even a TINY bit of feelings of each other. Or they would go and celebrate since they both are free from each other. But the main point of this "effect" would be the effect of this event on their children. Some children would probably go down the wrong path and blame themselves for their parents' divorce. Some would even engage in drugs and maybe hate their own parents. This all depends on how they are brought up though, but of course, we can never control how a person thinks, right? Specially children.

         So I'd certainly go for the advice that I gave, but in the end, the choice is for the married couple to decide

     What changed your life? It could have been a small present from your mom and dad, it could have been the most embarrassing experience during your high school days or a special person who made you see the "light". Well, what changed my life would be a very small event and three people who entered my boring and uneventful life. So let's fasten your imaginary seatbelt in this imaginary rocket as we travel through the entire universe of my life story.

      It was the beginning of a new school year, to be more precise, a new HIGH SCHOOL year. Yup! I was your brand new just-graduated-a-few-months-ago freshman in this institution. The first thing that caught my eyes was a few familiar faces that I'd seen just a few months ago when I graduated. I waved to them and we exchanged Hi's and a few summer stories. Of course what was a new school year without new classmates? I looked around and saw new faces but what caught my attention the most was a girl who sat alone in front, she was looking a bit lonely so I approached her and introduced my self to her. Then, another girl came to talk to us. Her face looked familiar. Oh! I remember! She was with me last year when we were doing girl scout duty. We were assigned to teach the same class with two other boy scouts, of course, that topic is not what's important in this narrative essay. Anyway, she introduced herself and called her companion over. Now this person I've talked to two or three times when we were in sixth grade. She was a bit...erm...different in "shape", but her attitude was okay. She was friendly and easy to get along with. So anyway, back to the story. The four of us exchanged stories and we decided to sit next to each other. We got closer to each other everyday, talking about random topics from out of the blue. Eating lunch together was another regular habit of ours. But of course, it's not everyday that friends are "friendly" to each other, so we also fought a bit, but this "fight" lasts for only about two hours or LESS.

      Due to these three people, my entire life took a turn. My life was no longer boring, since I found everyday to be very exciting and interesting. My everyday-life was no longer uneventful, since we always find a way to entertain ourselves. As time went by, I didn't notice that I was already changing, this change was slow, yet it was already something big and something that everyone else noticed except myself. I then knew that these people would be the people who I would call my "best friends". Best friends who I will always remember and will always treasure. When I realized this, I immediately promised myself that no matter what happens, even if the four of us get separated, we'll still be best friends and will never forget each other, even if we grow up. With these thoughts in mind, to this day, even though the four of us are slowly being separated by time, classes and life...we still find time to stop our journey in life for a bit and just talk to each other.

      These people changed me so much that I owe my thanks to them. They made me realize that life isn't always boring and uneventful, sometimes, you'll just have to CREATE an event yourself and enjoy it. So, many thanks to those three people ;3 they know who they are ~ ♥

    "What is a family?" a teacher asked her pupils, many small anxious hands can be seen being raised as high as possible in an attempt to be the one chosen to answer this stimulating question. The teacher finally chose a pupil, age six, by the name of Haru. The little boy stood up and answered with a very energetic voice, the kind that really shows how much the kid wanted to answer, "A family is like a freshly baked cookie." The other children laughed and said that what Haru was saying was very senseless, but the teacher told them to be quiet as she is interested in hearing more from Haru, the teacher prompted Haru to continue what he was saying, and the little child did. "A family is like a freshly baked cookie because a family is warm and sweet. Warm because it makes me feel secure and their love, that envelopes every part of me, is the sweetness that you can taste in the cookie. Umm...umm...teacher, that's all...I can't think of anything else." The teacher just motioned Haru to come up front and gave him a star.

    So what IS a family? Maybe, to those people who don't really care about anything at all, a family is just a bunch of people who you live with in your house or a couple of noisy people who are, in a rebellious teen's term, 'ruining your life'. But can you believe that the above statement by Haru came from a six-year-old kid? Of course. If a child can express his innocent opinion with such innocent words, let me express MY opinion about what a family is. Here goes...

    A family is a foundation of a father, a mother, one or two or more children and...BLAH BLAH! Let's skip that taken-out-of-wiki definition and get serious with what I, Chie-sama, thinks a family is. First of all, let's pretend we're playing house with some dolls. Grab a male doll and let him play the role of the wall of the house, a "father". Then get a female doll, let's say you got Barbie and the male one was Ken, and let her play the role of the light of the house, a "mother". Then get some random child dolls and let them be the "children" of this play. This is a family, very warm and very "fuzzy". You can never take the "father" off the group and still call it a family...WRONG! This doll house is just a small side of the big "family". Next to this doll house would be the neighbors, then the school, the place where mom and dad works, some relatives and some close friends. A family isn't just a dad, a mom and two or more children. No. Of course not. A family is something bigger and warm and it consists of the people who are very close to you. A family is a couple of people who you treasure the most and make you feel like there is nothing to be afraid of. This kind of family lasts forever, especially if you take really good care of it and treasure it with all your heart (wait, don't forget to leave some space for yourself! xD).

     So a family isn't just a 'dad', a 'mom' and a few children. It's possibly, and REALLY more than that! A family is one of the greatest treasures one could ever discover in this vast and lonely world.

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       Going through the narrow hallway of our house, you'll come across a door with stickers of anime all over. Open the door and you'll be able to smell a faint scent of strawberries, which happens to be my favorite fruit, and I advice you to wear a jacket and bring a flashlight because I like it cold and dark specially since it's summer, when it's winter everything is darker and colder so please bring a heater. To your left is my messy bed, covered in blue and is surrounded with stuffed toys which I throw all over the room whenever I go to sleep, which I seldom use since I prefer sleeping on the floor with the stuff toys. Just above the bed, hangs a small blackboard, the kind of blackboard that children use for playing pretend-school, and the writings on that blackboard varies according to my everyday mood, sometimes curses and sometimes just random rants or maybe even drawings of tortured people or names of people that I hate. The wall beside my bed is full of writings and drawings from when I threw my past tantrums, reasons for these are to be kept secret since this essay is only about my bedroom and not my personal life, these are mostly curses and some alien word that I write whenever I throw my scary tantrums, I also advice you to stay away from my room if you're scared. Under my bed would be a red vacuum cleaner which has writings all over. Just beside my bed would be my closet which has a mirror that has stickers as frames, the contents of my closet is to be kept secret because I don't like to share what people call "cheap" clothes I have in there. The closet has two doors, open the other one and you'll be able to see books of all sorts like fantasy books to Archie comics, which I grew tired of and some are torn apart because of my random tantrums, and hidden just behind the stack of bags, are my printed mangas or Japanese comics which I always read over and over again. On top of the closet would be my radio's box, my blower and a bunch of junk I don't even want to touch, I clean that area at least once a month or a year. On the left of the closet is my sister's bed, covered in pink, nothing special about it, it's very clean unlike my messy-stuffed-toy-covered bed.

        My computer is place near the terrace, which is the only "window" in my room and is patched with newspapers since I like my room darker as possible. The monitor of my computer is covered with sticky-notes full of passwords or just some random anime site that I found and pictures of either my favorite anime or me and my friends doing random insanities or just a random Japanese idol that I admire. The computer desk is messy but the "messy-ness" of it is somewhat organized because I always leave the mess as it is and seldom clean it. The speakers are always at full blast whenever I play my songs, which are mostly anime OSTs (and if you don't know what an OST is, where the hell did you come from?) and Japanese songs since I don't like English and Filipino songs that much. Next to the speakers would be my guitar, which I randomly use from time to time, which is full of writings like "I hate this life" or "This guitar sucks like hell" but the writings are mostly rants that I carved whenever I have those tantrums. Next to my desktop computer would be my television and a pile of DVDs, either children's movies or anime (but most of it is anime), along with the DVD player. The television table has two sets of drawers, on the left is my sister's and on the right is mine. I just stuff random things in my drawer and I haven't opened it in like two years, who knows what we'll find in that place. Random things are scattered on the floor and my mom just cleans it up in the morning while I'm at school, but it'll eventually be messy again in the evening.

       All in all, my room is an absolute mess and is very unorganized. My sister just sleeps in the room so I have the room all to myself all day. And that's about it, the tour in my psychopathic room ends here. Ja ne~!